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Monday, June 26, 2006

11:39 AM

omg.
something biggg happened.
ogmomgomgomg.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY.
its like.
err.
aiiya.
I DONT KNOW LA.
what did we do to make you this way.!?
TELL ME.
I HATE IT.
im actually sleeping with a
fucking whore.
in the same room.
everyday.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, June 25, 2006

2:05 PM

OK.
SHORT ONE.
im doing maths.
came over to DESTRESS.
blehh.
like real.
anyway.
IM DOING MATHS.
out of like.
50 questions.
I ONLY KNOW HOW TO DO 10.
great.!!
AND.
im finishing my hw.
GREAT NEWS
(:
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, June 24, 2006

9:26 AM

OMMG.
haha.
okok.
big event today
xD
YOU KNOW WHY I WAS SHOCKED TO RECIEVE YOUR CALL.!?
cause yesterday night i just placed this PIKACHU
as your pic.!!
wahaha.
haha.
and i went to sleep.
blah blah.
today at the bus.
i was DREAMING.
ok.
i ALWAYS dream.
yea.
and i was wondering.
how would the pikachu look like when you call..
dream dream.
VIBRATE VIBRATE *
and i looked at it.
and a pikachu was staring at me.
and i was like.
OMGGGGG.!
so yea.
i sounded like.
oO.!!!!
okok.
STATE OF SHOCK YOU KNOW.!?
and like yea.
YOU ASKED WHERE AM I.
AND MY FIRST REACTION WAS.
I HOPE YOU'RE NOT IN SCHOOL.!!
AND WHEN YOU SAID YOU WERE.
I WAS LIKE.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.!!
haha.
and yea yea.
i was so worried
T.T..
I SERIOUSLY DONT WANT YOU TO SEE ME LOOKING.
SOOOO.
RETARDED.!!!!
yea.
and yea yea.
YOU DONT KNOW.
HOW HAPPY I WAS.
WHEN I SAW YOU IN THE DISTANCE.
GOING HOMEEEEE.!!!!!
YES YES YES.
good boy good boy
T.T...
i was so worried..
and i went practically insane la.
but horhhs.
you look different.
is it your hair.?
@.@?
you cut it or styled it another way.??
ohh and.
GET WELL SOON JOEL ~
xD
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, June 23, 2006

11:45 AM

SORRY JOEL LEOW.!!
i've wronged you
T.T
please accept my sincere apologies.
and get well soon
^^"
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


9:39 AM

STUPID JOEL LEOW.!
STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID.!!
WHY NEVER PICK UP MY CALL.?!?!?!?!
YOU'RE FREAKING MEAN LARHHS.!!
WHEN I NEED YOUR HELP YOU'RE NOT THERE.!
WHEN YOU NEED MY HELP IM ALWAYS THERE.!!
( i think )
anyway.
grrr.!!
all thanks to you.
i saw ms kong at the bus stop today.!!
and i was like.
OMG.!!
and she turned around and smiled.
and i was like.
oh er er er er.
she was on the phone and yea.
I NEEDED TO FIND SOMEONE TO TALK TO.
IF NOT I'LL GO MADD.!!
PLUS.!
IF IM TALKING OF THE PHONE.!
SHE WONT TALK TO ME RIGHT.??!?!?!
AND YEA.
YOU SHOULD BE HONOURED.!
THAT I THOUGHT OF YOU TO HELP ME.!!!
AND YOU'RE AT.?
WHERE.?!?!?!?!
grrrrrrr.!!!!
in the end she still talk to me..
...
stupid sia.
GRRRRRRRR.
argh.!!
and and and.
TODAY IS SOOOOOOOO SUAY.!!!
i know la.
i look like a retard.!!
AND WORSE WHEN IM DANCING.!!
AND AND AND.
SUAY SUAY.!!
nevin was there..
=.=...
GRRRRR.!
why of all people.!??!?!?!??!
......
.....
....
..
.
AND I WAS SO WORRIED.!!!
cause the badminton nets were up.
and i was sooo worried.
THAT THE BADMINTON PEOPLE WOULD COME.!!!!
AND AND AND.
THERE WOULD BE MORE 3D PEOPLE.!!
LOOKING AT THE RETARDED ME.!!
ok i shouldnt be so bhb.
cause they might not be looking at me.
=.=ll
but but.
NOOOOOOOOOO.!!!
SO I WAS QUITE HAPPY.
WHEN RYAN SAID HE ISNT COMING.
THANK GOD.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so sorry if im being mean.
and yea.
my hair is okay..
so i got nothing to worry about
^^"
it looks almost the same as my previous..
so dont need to look forward to seeing it
=.=ll
if you are..
^^"..
NOT BEING BHB HERE.
and yea.
im sorry for being soo mean okay.?
and ok.
i dont know la.
ITS NOT NICE DANCING LIKE A RETARD.
IN FRONT OF NEVIN.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ohh great.
im sooo going to get disturbed by nevin when school reopens
T.T..
like that how...
someone save me.!!
:'(
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, June 22, 2006

9:12 AM

lalala.
today wasnt so bad.
at least i did..
i few questions.?
T.T..
ITS BAD.
ohh wells.
anyway.
the dance today was fun.!
WE ATE AND ATE AND ATE.
wahahaha.
its sooo nice.
(:
AND YEA.
stupid joel leow.!!!!!
when i say dont come over.
DONT COME OVER.
you nearly scared the hell out of me.
when i heard your footsteps behind.
=.=
i didnt even DARE turn back okay.!!
whatever.
in the end i still ended up scolding you.
=.=
NEXT TIME I'LL SCOLD YOU.
BAKA.!!
=.=ll
whatever la.
haha.
but i think im getting better
(:
I CAN SCOLD YOU NOW.
heh.
next time i can end up BEATING you.
that'll be cool
(:
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

8:16 AM

ahhh.
today.
haha.
went to kino.!!
^^
and had..
SAKAE SUSHI.
haha.
i pon school to go there lehhs.!!
WORTH IT WORTH IT.
i hope no teacher sees this yea.?
xD
heck la.
anyway.
THEY TOOK UP OUR TIME.
AND WE'RE LIKE.
FORCED TO DO THIS.
SO.
they should allow us to pon once in a while right.??
haha.
whatever la
^^

OH YEA.
you know.
i've been wondering for a long time.
its a really dumb question really but..
why do guys ( perverted ones ) like to see UNDERWEAR.
ok the BOTTOM one.
yea yea.
why
@.@
i know its REALLY dumb typing it here.
to let everyone know im a pervert.
=.=..
but cause i watched naruto..
and that froggy pervert guy.
he likes to see women in bikini.
ok the top i understand.
but why bottom also want to see.
@.@?
its like THEIR OWN butts right.?
i mean.
guys wear underwear too.
why wont guys peek at guys too
@.@
i mean.
PERVERTED STRAIGHT GUYS.
yea.
ok i have NO idea.
~.~...
AND.
there are some who STEAL women underwear.
thats soo...
....
i dont know la.
WHATS SO NICE ABOUT IT.??
can someone tell me.??
its not as though it has some really nice smell on it.
its just..
detergent smell.!!
=.=..
i dont know la.
err.
no idea.
=.=
AIIYA.
what am i typing all these for.?!?!?
=.=lll
this shows im a pervert too.??!
@.@.!!
THATS BAD.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

12:43 PM

im so sad.
):
its..
urgh.
you cant insult people like that.
and you're not apologising.
im sorry.
but someone has to say this to you.
but you're too high pride sometimes.
im sorry if i hurt you by saying that.
but its true.
and truth hurts.
and i do hope you'll change to be better.
someday.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


9:51 AM

yes yes yes.
HAPPY AND SAD TODAY.
ohh.
and i want to make it clear.
or..
aiiya whatever.
JEREMY ISNT SO BAD AFTER ALL.
i always thought.
he is an.
irritant.
yes.
sorry ^^"
haha.
BUT CAUSE YOU KEEP CALLING ME POLEDANCER.
whatever.
YEA YEA.
BUT YOU DIDNT MAKE FUN OF ME.
thats nice
(:
yes yes.
AND.
TODAY.
YES YES YES.
I'VE BEEN THINKING FOR A LONG TIME.
and yea.
I REALLY HATE HIM.
HOW
ARGH.!!
its not fair
T.T..
i know.
yea im selfish.
i dont care.
aiya.
IM UNREASONABLE.
AHHHH.
IM SO STRESSED LA.!
T.t..
hands getting better..
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, June 18, 2006

11:55 PM

ahh.
my hand hurts.!
AHH.
i think i sprained it when i was BOWLING.!
pain pain
T.T...
haha.
yes yes.
today went out for lunch and dinner.!!
LUNCH WAS BORING.
dinner was funny
xD
wahaha.
yea yea.
had that..
pig intestines thing.
err.
dont know what zhap one.
yea.
and we were like.
competing on WHO CAN FLARE UP THEIR NOSES.
haha.!
MY MOM AND I COULD.!
(: (:
THATS SOOO COOL.
wahahaha.
thats lame anyway
xD
but it was fun
^^
OH YEA.
earlier.
my bro BURPED on someone
xD
like.
*BURP*
in front of a LADY.
and she was like.
*BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH >=( *
and i was laughing
xD
wahaha.
but anyway.
that lady is soooo..
URGH.
qian bian.!
her stupid diao face.
grrr.
haha.
yes yes.
okay la.
its kinda disgusting to have someone burping on or near you.
haha.
with that..
=.=
xD
but i lurve burping.!!
haha.
okok.
thats soooo
un-lady like.
BUT WHATEVER.
as long as IM happy.
I DONT EVEN GIVE A DAMN TO OTHERS
(:
yay
^^
LIVING HAPPY IS MORE IMPORTANT.
THAN HOW PEOPLE HATE YOU OR WHATEVER SHIT.
yay.!!
a new saying done by amanda.!!
whee ~
thats fun
(x
oh and.
happy birthday edmund.!!!
haha.
and happy father's day too
^^
didnt do much for my dad though.
cant massage him
^^"
I CANT EVEN GRIP A WATER BOTTLE.
WITHOUT FEELING PAIN.

man.
i really need to stretch before bowling next time.
=/
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


8:14 AM

ahhh.
IM FULLY RECOVERED.
whee ~
haha.
i guess its good news
^^
haha.
yes yes yes.
i would like to use my blog to.
THANK GOD THAT I COULD GO YTD.
THANK YOU THANK YOU.
haha.
it was great
^^
bowling was superb.!
wahaha.
i finally found my individual bowling pose
(:
wahaha.
but cause of this stupid pose.
MY BUTT HURTS.
never stretch.
=.=..
haha.
ohh wells.
yes yes yes.
we made a so-called deal.!
haha.
when we reach 16.
WE'LL PLAY POOL
AND BOWLING
YES YES.
that would be GREAT.
haha.
i dont really know how to play pool.
so its something im looking forward to.!
^^
haha.
hmms.
by then..
2 more years..
AND WE CAN START DRINKING.
whee ~
haha.
that would be soooo cool.
yea.
you know.
these age limit thing.
can be really irritating at times.
but.
it just gives you the trills.!
when you find out you can do new things at that age
^^
haha.
but those movies..
they shouldnt rate them
=.=
EXCEPT.
RA.
those MUST rate.!
if not.
someone accidently watches it..
=.=...
that'll be TERRIBLE.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, June 16, 2006

11:59 PM

AH.
I DID MAKE IT TODAY.
yes yes yes.
highest scare for bowling today.
113.!
not very high.
BUT.
i finally found my 'true bowling pose'
whee
^^
haha.
today wasnt so bad.
felt uneasy.
haha.
yepp.
no strength to play badminton.
kept panting.
this is SO not good.
i hope i get well after sat.!!
haha.
AFTER SAT.
i dont want to go for piano lessons.!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, June 15, 2006

7:45 PM

oh god.
my temperature rose.!
and my thermometer has no batt.
IM DEAD.
HOW CAN SOMETHING LIKE THAT HAPEN.?!
im going to die soon
T.T..
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


6:47 PM

ahh.
16 CANT SCREW UP.
NONONO.
AMANDA CANNOT SCREW UP 16.
i've tried SO hard to make it right.
now im going to screw it up MYSELF.!
by BEING SICK.
ARGHHHH
NO.!!
ahh
T.T
I MUST RECOVER BY TODAY.
BY TODAY I MUST.!
oh yes.
tomorrow is going to be a GREAT DAY.
amanda cannot get sick.
nono.
she must recover.!
PLEASE.
I HOPE A MIRACLE COMES.
AND CURE ME.!
just for tomorrow.!!
you can kill me after that.
I SWEAR IT.!!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


11:10 AM

im the luckiest person on earth.
really i am.
i want to change my e-mail now.!
I'M LUCKY.
I'M NOT SUAY.
yes yes yes.!
i feel so lucky
T.T
thank you..
its like..
i feel..
important..
all of a sudden..
i feel that..
some people really need me.
or help me..
so much
T.T..
im so grateful to them..
thank you
T.T
arghh.
i dont know what to say
T.T...
THANK YOU DADDY
SOOOOO MUCH.
i lurve you so much.!!!
and im so sorry hanbing
wasnt online to hear you out...
and joel
for almost spoiling your eardrums..
and ryan
^^"
for..
i dont know what.
haha.
~.~
THANK YOU ALLLLL.!!
I LURVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLL.!!!!!


<3 i've really never felt any luckier.
I WANT TO CHANGE E-MAIL.
NO MORE SUAY GAL.
LUCKY GURL.!!!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

3:59 AM

yes yes.
a few minutes more
and i got to go.!
haha.
going out with xiling.!
TO BUGIS.
whee.
but but.
i dont want to take neoprints.
i look awful now.!
haiis.
haha.
will write later
^^
20 mins more ~


THEY SAY IT CHANGES WHEN THE SUN GOES DOWN ~
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

5:47 AM

what am i doing.
just WHAT am i doing.
reading it over again.
it really makes me angry.
seriously.
why.
do i even..
...
man.
im the dummest person alive.
can someone.
anyone.
tell me what I should do.
im so dumb.
grrr.
i do hope.
in the future.
that my future bf will NEVER EVER be like that.
really.
i dont want my future bf to be THIS tiring.
hmms.
yes yes ^^
thinking of that really makes feel better
haha.
at least i know.
god is training me now.
so i wont have such a tiring time withmy future bf.
xD
what a way to think of it.!
haha.
i guess.
this is what people call
the bright side of life
^^

haha anyway.
saw what joel wrote about me.
though i think its a few days late to type this.
BUT.
i want to write about my friends too
xD
wahhaa.
sorry if i copied your idea ^^
hehe.
hmms..
my close friends only okay.?
^^

1. xinyi
someone i spend lots of time with.
currently quarrelling.
but shes a nice person to spend time with.

2. vivien
^^
shes the only one of the 6 in the same class as me.!
anyway.
shes my 'diary' in school.
haha.
yes everything thats bothering me
i'll definately tell her ^^
someone trustworthy in my class
yes yes.!
haha.
and we go through alot of things together too.
=.=..
like.
THE PULLING OF HAIR.?!
wahaha.
whatever.
basically.
a nice gurl.
AND PRETTIEST AMONG THE 6 OF US
(:

3. yieyeng
whee ~~
yie yie yie yie yie ~~
haha.
okay joking.
haha.
yes.
she is always HAPPY.
(:
haha.
most of the times.
yes yes.
a very nice person to confide in too.
and of course.
with her playing with you,
you'll never get bored
(:
ps. her flying kick really HURTS.

4. huilian ~~
hehe.
nickname cow or hl.
i prefer to call her hl.
wahaha.
shes ALWAYS happy.
yes yes.
NEVER seen her angry before.
^^
funny friend to hang out with.
and of course.
LURVES TO SLEEP.
^^"

5. CAROLINE ~~~~
a really SERIOUS girl.!
haha.
should learn to relax abit.!!
always neutral in our fights
xD
and.!!
i havent figured who she likes yet
(;
wahahaha.
okok im joking.
^^"
dont get mad.!
but you're always missing the fun
T.T..

okay my group done
^^
now the people outside the group.!!

1. DADDY.
(: (:
always supportive and understanding.
whee ~
though you're playful sometimes.
but you're more matured than me.!!
haha.
feel safe telling you things ALL the time.
haha.
there is NOTHING you dont know
^^
and you understand EVERY BIT of me.
and thats so COOL.
yes yes.
DEFINITELY FIT TO BE MY DAD.
(:
i even inherited some stuffs from you
xD
wahahaha.

2. JOEL.
i think i'm relying on you more and more.!
haha.
see la.
you're always getting me into trouble.!!
but i bet.
i owe you BIG TIME in my past life.
so i'll forgive you
xD
wahahaha.
mad.
ohh and
YOU.
YOU PROMISED TO BE HAPPY.!!
(: wahaha.
YOU HAD BETTER BE.
or i'll haunt you till you laugh in your sleep.
xD
thats MAD.
anyway.
trustworthy guy.
hmms.
loyal.?
except maybe.
WHITEMAILING ME.
wahahaha.
stop making up nonsense la.!
=.=...

3. hanbing.!
i doubt you're going to read my blog but whatever.
haha.
yes yes.
very understanding
^^
and err.
ALWAYS MAKING ME CALL.
yea.
haha.
by looking at his looks.
YOU'LL NEVER SEE THAT HE IS THAT WISE.!!!
yes yes ^^
always helping me with my problems.
VERY GRATEFUL
haha
xD
thanks.!

4. CHERYLLLL
my DARLING COUSIN.!!
yes yes.!
VERY PRETTY GIRL.
and always there to help me
^^
im so sorry i cant help you much when you're crying.
i dont know what to do when people cry.!!!
lol.
but whatever it is.
i want cheryl to be HAPPY FOREVER.
(:
yes yes.?
i take it as you promised.!!
(x

5. ryan
^^
haha.
yes yes.
you helped me alot
~.~
and im very grateful
^^
very helpful dude.
but but.
T.T..
i do hope i wont cause problems for you anymore.!!
>.<.!!!
next time if theres anything.
PLEASE JUST GO FOR WHATEVER YOU NEED TO.
>.<.!!
you can help me after you're done with your lessons..
and its not worth it to miss your lessons cause of a dumb pig
T.T
okay okay.??
im so sorry btw.
i know i repeated this alot.
but its cause.
IM SOOO DUMB.
~.~

6. chenghoong.?
haha.
im so sorry i didnt know how to spell your name earlier.!!
>.<.!!
i dont know much about you.
all i know is.
I OWE YOU $9.95.!!
T.T.T.T.T.T
haha.
anyway.
i dont know what to say.
but i do hope you'll be happy everyday.!
(:

7. ann chen.!??!?!!?
i dont know how you came up into my head.
maybe cause i talk to hanbing too much and you're there.
haha.
anyway.
IM SORRY OKAY.
i didnt mean it okay.?
@.@.
anyway i really DIDNT do anything to my bro.
so relax ~~
i could hear you saying how mean i am through the phone.
if you dont know.
=/

i think thats about it..
haha.
for those i've missed out
^^"
sorry.!!
cant remember anyone else..
well except my god siblings.
wahaha.
^^
god siblings i'll write another day bahhs
(:

yea.
come to think about it.
i feel that im the luckiest girl alive on this world now.
(:
THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING IT WONDERFUL.!!
^^
lol.
i guess i owe it BIG TIME to you guys again.
will repay you in my next life
xD
haha.
or next next life if you need to
(x
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, June 12, 2006

11:37 AM

i hope everything ends
now.
i already wrote a super long e-mail.
with every feeling i had on earth.
on it.
if it doesnt please you.
forget it.
i dont know what else you want me to do.
or say.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


10:55 AM

...
what else.
do you want me to do.
tell me.
what else CAN i do.
tell me.
JUST TELL ME.
i dont know.
im trying to stop shivering.
stop being pissed.
and now im here.
begging you.
to stop this storm.
its brewing.
lightning is about to strike.
and i dont want this to happen.
i've already apologised.
many times.
everywhere.
why are you still continuing this.
tell me.
WHAT EXACTLY.
DO YOU WANT ME TO DO.
TELL ME.
I BEG YOU TO TELL ME.
i dont want my cousin involved.
in this crap.
ok.
i'll apologise here again.
i am SORRY.
i dont want this to continue.
i am stupid.
i am dumb.
i am petty.
i'm the one who is childish.
i'm the one who needs the growing up.
i'm the one who treats you badly.
i'm the one who hurts you like crazy.
i'm the one who gives you the cold shoulder all the time.
i'm the one who is wrong all the time.
you're right.
theres nothing wrong with you.
whatever you do is right.
you're right about me hurting you.
you're right about me being childish.
yes im stupid im dumb.
now stop all these.
if you dont.
i won't be the one who started this nonsense.
is that apology BETTER.?!
after not accepting the rest.?
i give up la.
what more do you want.
i know.
i'll never know how much i hurt you.
likewise.
you'll never know how much you hurt me.
you'll never know what its like to be me.
and i'll never know what its like to be you.
okay.?
yes yes im the self-centered one.
okay.?
just give it up already.
if you dont stop this storm.
even an umbrella wont do any good.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


7:30 AM

IM THE DUMMEST PIG ALIVE.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


5:17 AM

tell me.
when is this going to be over.
i really really want this to end.
im serious.
i apologised.
WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, June 11, 2006

9:23 AM

i dont know.
i dont know what to write here.
you dont know how much i did.
i dont know how much you did.
but whatever it is.
its broken..
and the pieces are already on the floor..
waiting to be swept away..
i cant live without you.
and to think im unimportant.
it breaks my heart.
):
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


4:01 AM

ahh.
today's piano lesson sucked.
REALLY SUCKED.
you know what.
i hate piano.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
you've got the tallent.
WHATS THE POINT.
i hate it.
i hate piano.
i really hate it.
i really want to go through grade 8.
but is it that easy.?!
its easy to say.
not easy to do.
im serious.
i would rather die than be a piano teacher in the future.
i hate this.
i hate this.
I TOTALLY HATE THIS.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, June 10, 2006

9:16 AM

omg.
one thing to say now.
DADDY
whee ~
thank you and
i lurve you more than my real daddy
^^
wahaha.
i bet you're flinching after reading this
(:
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


8:00 AM

ok.
i ended it.
i guess
its a happy ending now.?
haha.
i dont know what to say today.
some other time yea.?
cant wait for 16
(:
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, June 09, 2006

9:30 AM

ok fine.
those were harsh.
i'll keep it down.
again.
doing something against my will.
i dont know la.
its just totally.
heartbreak
fine..
i'll take it as nothing happened at all.
im happy with everything..
*thank goodness i got friends like daddy, hanbing, joel, ryan, cheryl.. if not i wont be able to type all of these out. thank you for hearing my childish stories and sorry that you had the dummest friend/daughter/cousin in the world.*
( omg. its fate. look at this.' Your HTML cannot be accepted: Tag is broken: fine.. i'll take it as nothing happened at all. im happy with everything..' it happened when i posted. wow. fate.. and i tried posting this EIGHT times.. [ ITS IRRITATING ME ] all same thing..and the toy that xinyi gave me.. its neck was bitten off by my dog.. fate.. T.T.. thank you god for so many hints but im going against you.. )
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


6:25 AM

..
i dont know what to say to you.
i was on the verge of crying if you havent noticed.
of course you havent noticed.
whatever.
you.
i dont know what to say to you.
maybe im too sensitive.
or whatever.
( which is very unlikely.
cause you're always the sensitive one. )
but this is how i feel :
you lurve making excuses which are all crappy ones.
you care more of yourself than others.
you're bosy.
you take naruto as you're number one priority.
( not that naruto isnt something to put as your number one priority or anything )
you know what.
i hate being your DOG.
you know what.
whatever peiting said is true.
but i didnt want to make you sad.
by saying its true.
but now.
i guess i have to tell you.
sooner or later.
truth hurts gurl.
and i'll tell you now.
you're bosy cause.
you tell me to do things i HATE to do.
you know.
you must do this with me.
you must do that with me.
you know what.
i only did them cause i didnt want you saying that i neglect you.
your excuses.
yo know them yourself.
i dont care anymore.
your priority.
whatever.
you're sick or so you claimed.?
wow.
i totally believe it.
are you sick.?
are you okay.?
OF COURSE YOU'RE OKAY.
YOU'RE WATCHING NARUTO.
ohh blardy hell.
today you said.
whats wrong with you.
just cause i didnt come yesterday.
and you're angry with me.
omg.
whats wrong with me.?
WHATS WRONG WITH ME.?!
WHAT KIND OF FUCKING QUESTION IS THAT.?!
well.
i'll answer it now.
the problem is YOU.
YOU'RE THE PROBLEM.
whatever.
and what did you say.?
i dont mind losing a friend.
wow.
im so hurt.
fine.
if im not that important that you can lose.
fine.
and now i'll write here.
that i dont care if i lose YOU and only YOU.
i dont know why you're my friend in the first place.
im stupid.
really stupid.
i dont care anymore.
i really dont.
i dont care.
i really dont.
ohhhh.
i dont even know what to type.
how disappointed i am.?
or how much i take you as some dumb chick.
or even worse.
a fucker.
*betcha going to go around telling others what i said and you being innocent. guess what.
i dont care what others think about me anymore.
go on.
brainwash them.
you dont even know how bad you really are sometimes.
and im totally DONE with that.*
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, June 08, 2006

7:04 AM

im so happy.
daddy is soooo sweet.
haha.!
i feel so lucky sometimes.
when im down.
theres always someone to cheer me up.
yesterday i was soo down.
and some stranger cheered me up.
today its daddy ^^
haha.
didnt go tuition to pei me ~~
haah.
part of his reason.
im sure its a small part.
but whatever.
as long as someone's there for me when im down.
they are considered best pals.
i lurve you daddy ~~
if you're reading this.
haha.
dont freak out.
(:
i lurve you as a daddy way
^^
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


5:22 AM

i had enough.
im tired of you.!
from now on.
you're on your own.
i wont do what you tell me to.
go on.
just keep giving everyone excuses.
you know what.
if you're reading this.
im sure you know who you are.
you know.
im tried of you.
and im serious.
you give excuses.
and you think people fall for it.
guess what.
everyone knows you're playing truant.
and for crying out loud.
your excuses totally suck.
whatever.
i dont care anymore.
from now on.
YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN.
you didnt apologise to me.
whatever.
since you think its right.
then just be it.
dont call me.
i wont accept your calls.
ohh and.
shut the fuck up about your excuses.?
i dont want to hear them anymore.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

7:52 AM

im sadd.
sad sad sad.
ohh great.
WHATEVER.
how could she do this.
okay well i dont entirely blame her.
cause she MIGHT just like him.
but whatever.
how could she talk to me and not him.
haha.
this is plain jealousy ~~
i hate life.
man.
i cant bring myself to hate her.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

11:53 PM

YES.
i finished making my hair.
IN JUST 20 MINS.
thats SUCH an improvement
^^
now going to surf around before heading to school.
T.T..
i got dance again.
man.
please gimme a break.!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


9:15 AM

went to bugis just now.
just came back.
felt like writing.
(:
yepp.
i was at bugis.
went to buy my books at kino ~~
my heaven
^^
ohhh god.
anyway.
i got my comic and princess diaries
(:
and i decided to get edmund's gift there.!
BUT.
i cant find anything suitable
T.T
i mean.
i saw many handphone holders..
but i already gave you one last year.!!
ohh wells.
haha.
i held my bro up.
cause.
HE NEEDED TO SHIT.
ohh great.
he kept bugging me to find him a toilet.
wth.
haha.
went in metro.
and i was like.
its gotta be in here.
and i saw it.
omg....
the..
POKEMON SECTION.
is RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES.
i was like.
err.
ITS THERE.!
THE TOILET IS THERE.!
and i dragged my bro straight to the pokemon section
xD
and he was like.
I NEED TO GO TO THE TOILET.!
URGH YOU CHILDISH WOMAN.
whatever ~~
pokemon rawk my world
(:
im in lurve with pokemon and
THAT'LL NEVER CHANGE.
so calling me childish won't change anything
^^
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


4:59 AM

^^
really HIGH today.
(:
whee ~~
guess what.?
I'M ABLE TO FIGHT MY FEARS AFTER ALL.
i can talk to JOEL now.
whee ~~
haha.
okay.
thats lame shit.
but whatever.
sheesh.
today's dance was okay.
but im DYING to get into racial harmony.
but now the teacher said its NOT POSSIBLE.!?
what do you mean NOT POSSIBLE.!?
you said it was alright at first.!
I'M SO GOING TO KILL YOU.
anyway.
today.
i spent ONE HOUR doing my hair.
man.
its so hard to tidy it up.
now im sitting here wearing my pe t-shirt.
i tell you.
I'M NEVER TAKING IT OFF.
not cause i really love it or anything.
but cause.
if i take it off.
its SOO going to mess my hair.
no way.
if i want to change.
i'd rather cut it open so i can get out of it SAFELY.
without TOUCHING My hair.
that would be great =.=
and im going to sleep with my head in the sky.
and im never touching my hair.
i wont be doing exercises.
i wont be sweating..
THAT WAY.
it'll never be ruined.!!
ohh god.
thats dumb.
im sitting here sweating already.
my hair will not be ruined.!!
I DONT WANT TO END UP GOING TO SCHOOL LATE CAUSE I WAS FIXING MY HAIR.
no way.!!
i'm never going to ruin my profile.
the paper is as pure as snow ~
well unless it turns a little yellow or brown after so many years.
or maybe insects eating the corners.1`
whatever.
maybe i should get hair spray.
it shall stay.
forever like this.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, June 05, 2006

5:18 AM

ahh.
had lunch.
a TOUGH lunch.
had to eat with.
2 english people.!
and i was kinda pressurised.
english people really mind table manners right.?
as in.
they are..
CIVILISED.
im sure they really mind people without table manners.
and me.
i suck at table manners really.
shaking legs.
elbows on tables.
and a leg up while eating.
would totally gross them out.
so i BEHAVED.
okay.
but they totally DASHED this thinking of mine.
ok..
lunch.
i didnt dare eat anything before they did.
i just sat there.
HOPING THEY'LL COME SOON.
im freaking hungry.!!
HELLO.!?
they're holding up everyone.!!
and my dad.
stil showing off how well he trained the dogs.
my mom.
showing her jewelery.
sheesh.
my bro just ate.
wow.
he is soo.
laid back.
whatever.
we ate after that.
i really tried to put on my best behaviour.
i held my spoon and fork PROPERLY.
you dont see me holding it properly at all k.
okay..
and i didnt know how to hold it properly
=.=
its HARD.
i tried k.
but i dropped..
MY PRAWN.
ahh crap.
and they were laughing at me.
whatever.
but its so.
EMBARRASSING.
okay.
but the man dropped his prawn too.
made me feel better a little.
i guess.
but.
he did something totally GROSS.
okay.
for a civilised man from an english country.
ITS WEIRD TO DO THIS.
he picked it.
WITH HIS FINGERS.
maybe its normal.
but to me.
i never thought english people would do things like that at all.!!
OKAY.
i'll cool it and pretend its normal.
it was okay.
i didnt talk.
and struggled to pick something with my spoon.
only later.
i realised the lady.
she placed her spoon in the soup.
and she..
omg.
i dont know what the hell she did that for.
cause.
she started..
using her fork..
AS A SPOON.
whats wrong with the spoon.??
theres a fly on it.??
or you totally dont know how to use a SPOON.?!
western people have millions of spoons for different uses.!
and its IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU NOT TO KNOW HOW TO USE A SPOON.
seriously.
totally.
my whole english-people-are-civilised thing.
is totally DASHED.
D-A-S-H-E-D.
okay.
so there are people out there that suck in table manners.
seriously.
the lady.
she picked up the plate of chicken.
and INSPECTED IT.
and asked.
this is duck.?
and my mom said yes.
and all of us were like.
NO ITS CHICKEN.
and she was like.
OH.
chicken.??
yea i see the chicken wings here.
and she pointed to them.
like counting candies in a bag.
or now rather,
a plate.
whatever.
thats soo.
er.
i dont know who would INSPECT food then COUNT it.
shes like 40 over years of age.?
okay.
whatever.
GAHH.
im feeling so disappointed.
im sooo going to act nomal when i eat next time.
sheesh.
i hope they wont stay for dinner.
=.=
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, June 04, 2006

12:27 PM

lalala.
greaat day today is ^^
haha.
first of all.
i had to cut my hair that i've kept for like.
a million years.!!
and now.
ITS FREAKING SHORT.
not that the hairdresser screwed up my hair.
it just looks.
weird for a start i guess.
haha.
had to buy shampoo.!!
AND MY MOM TOLD ME.
if you dont have dandruff dont buy.
HUH.
I'VE BEEN USING HEAD AND SHOULDERS FOR 2 YEARS.
AND I DONT HAVE DANDRUFF.
uh oh.
IS MY HAIR GOING TO SPOIL OR SOEMTHING.!?
my dad always said.
head and shoulders can make tumors on your head.
WTH.?!
thats SO not true.
he said that it cleans the dandruff.
and it gets stuck in the skin.
and a tumor appears.
tada.!
LAME.!
if its that way..
I WOULD HAVE MANY TUMORS BY NOW.
please =.=
ohh wells.
bought something else instead.
got pins too.
afternoon
spent the whole day packing my room.
wow.
i never knew i had so much rubbish.
i even found.
2 dead insects.
7 leaking batteries.
and a whole lot more.
ohh wwells.
after soaking in the DUST for the whole afternoon.
i couldnt help but feel HOW DIRTY I AM.
and for ONCE.
i enjoyed bathing.!
ohhhh boy.
it felt SO great.
well.
it was great while it lasted.
=.=
ahh.
im so bored now.
cant upload my file to the class forum.
zZz
haha.
ohh wells.
lol ryan
=.=
okok i'll draw you asap.?
xD
haha.
ok i cant draw guys well.
and with hair like that..
its going to be harder
=.=...
lol.
ohh wells.
signing off here ~~
i'l do my best to takkaire of the forum.!!
(:
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, June 03, 2006

11:34 AM


haha.
drew this on the cardboard behind my foolscap.
who does it look like ~~
hehe.
thats VIVIEN.
(:
i drew it during ss lesson.
she was tired.
and i guess.
was the best person to draw cause she wasnt moving around.
I GOT BORED.
at first i drew this ugly anime guy.
and realised i didnt know how to draw the hair well.
so guess what.
i drew the guy in front of me.
who is that.?
haha.
RYAN.
xD
err.
i'm sorry but i think it looks pretty weird..
cause your hair is sticking out all over the place.
NOT SAYING ITS UGLY.!!
dont get me wrong..
but its just hard to draw.!!
so i kinda gave up.
cause you were moving too much too ^^"
did you notice.?
HAHA.
anyway.
soo i drew vivien instead ^^
AND SHE LOOKED PRETTY CUTE.
like shes not already.?
hehe ^^
vivien keep denying that shes pretty.
SHE IS.
much more prettier than me
(:
ADMIT IT GURL ~
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, June 02, 2006

6:08 AM

siann.
today we had lesson.
ohh my dear clarence.
DON'T MSG ME SO LATE AT NIGHT.
you kept me awake.!!
=.=...
woke up in the early morning..
HANBING.
you you you.!!
7 AM WAKE ME UP.
heyy.
you woke me up from my sleep T.T
ok.
i slept at one cause of clarence.
and i woke up at 7 am.!!
HOW MANY HRS IS THAT.?!
hmms.
lets count.
6.!!
I NEED AT LEAST 9.
=.=
ok..
class sucked.
im sorry but.
MRS ONG.
YOU'RE SOME DUMB CHICK.
how can you not know the comp lab.?!
AND.
why didnt you check for the programme first.?!
i think thats pretty dumb.
luckily we could use your folder's
not saying that i really want to study or anything.
BUT I DONT WANT TO COME FOR NOTHING.
seriously.
i can sleep all i want at home.
or play internet for all i care.
and i had to spend my holidays going back to school.
i noticed yesterday.
i dont have school on 6 days.!!
SIX DAYS.
ONLY SIX DAYS ARE HOLIDAYS.
tell me about it.
this is some bulshit holiday man.
6 days.
no school.
some dumb musical night.
I WANT TO QUIT DAMNIT.
its taking a freaking lot of my time.
zZz
okok.
no time to be pissed.
i just pissed someone off T.T
or i think i did...
im so sorry T.T
i'm so sorry but i cant tell you.!! I WOULD BE TOO BHB.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, June 01, 2006

2:05 AM

ahh.
i thought it over yesterday.
im not saying it.
i've been keeping it for a really long time.
and i hope i wont have to open it up again.
so im sorry i made you come for nothing.

anyway.
I AINT DOING HOMEWORK AGAIN.
sheesh.
im slacking ~~
and got really BORED.
but i saw this.!
ahh.
nice song.!
I ALREADY FELL FOR IT.
koda kumi.!!
betcha thinking imma pervert.
BUT THIS SONG IS REALLY NICE.
im serious.!!
i've posted it on the blog.
you can go hear it.
ITS GREAT (:

the thing is.
i saw indian park.
and i CRIED.
i've got 99 problems
and the bitch aint one.
thats the REAL LYRICS.
they sung.
i've got 99 indians.
and its hard being one
or something like that.
OHH MYY GODDD.
its AWFUL.
T.T
how could they do something like that to a song.!?
SHEESH.

im bored.
someone please humor me.
):
wheres my entertainer.?
haha xD
sianns.
sianns.
sianns.!!
):
later got dance..
2 - 5.
SIAN.
thats going to be a hell of a party.
yea.
i wish zZ

*SHYT. the video is too big. the url is here ^^ *

i really REALLY think he likes me. thats a problem.!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;